I have been out of school for over a month now. A few of those weeks were spent at home totally loving it, but now that I'm back in St Louis, it has actually been kind of hard. It's not that I want to go back to school, but I can only do so many dishes before I want to be back at work! I have had some good news on that front. My background check for SLU is currently being processed so that I can get my job back at the Psych Services Center, and I just heard yesterday that I got a part-time job at Chestnut Health Systems. I am so excited about this! I will be there every Sat and Sun from 7:30am-3:30pm, and it's about a 40 min drive, so there will be some early mornings, but I'll be at a residential treatment facility for teenage boys with chemical dependencies. It will be a really good experience that will help me to verify that I do want to research addiction treatments while in grad school.
That is...if I get into grad school. I'm trying to keep my spirits up, but my friend had his first interview the other day at a school that I also applied to. I have yet to get my rejection letter from said school, so it just makes me uneasy to think how many other schools are doing their interviews without even bothering to let me know they aren't interested in me. I knew that during this process I would get rejected, but it's just hard that my future is in so many other people's hands, and at this point, I really have no control over it. It's a really scary feeling having no idea where I will be in 8 months. I don't like it.
I hope I start hearing soon. It's causing a lot of anxiety.
