So I have officially graduated college. How weird is that? I have my B.A. in Psychology, with 2 minors in Criminal Justice and Spanish from Saint Louis University. I still don't think it has really sunk in, but I didn't dream it because there are pictures to prove that it happened! It was wonderful having my family come down, and they all loved the food I made, which made it even better. Plus, a lot of my close friends came to watch me graduate and even waited for me after the ceremony for hugs and pictures. I am so spoiled by all the people in my life, it's not even funny. I don't know how I got to be so blessed, but I am so very grateful.
I graduated on a Friday, and the next week I still had some finals, work, and volunteering to do, but I came home last Friday. I will be in BloNo for 2 whole weeks, and I really don't have much planned. It's AMAZING. Dan's mom moved this past weekend, so I helped with that, and we still have a lot of cleaning/unpacking to do, so I am keeping myself busy, but I am also sleeping in and watching TV and since graduating, I have reread the first 2 Harry Potters and started number 3. It's so relaxing to not worry about anything and just enjoy doing whatever comes up.
Even though I can enjoy these 2 weeks with family, Christmas, and my most favorite niece's 4th birthday, the worry about what to do after this mini vacation is still there. My job that I had throughout school at the Psychological Services Center was a work study job, so since I am no longer a student, that job is not really available; however, my boss is looking at the budget to "see what she can do." My fingers are crossed because if I could stay there, life would be so much less stressful. However, if that doesn't work out, I am sure after the holidays I can apply to retail stores, etc, around STL and find something to fill my time with and make some money. It will all work out somehow.
All I know is that I plan to spend time with a lot of my favorite people while I am in town, while celebrating the holidays. It truly is a wonderful time of year!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Why now?
Heading to my last day of classes at SLU today, I heard Lady A's song, "I Was Here," and that is my inspiration for today
I wanna do something that matters
Say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better
With the time I've been given
And I wanna try
To touch a few hearts in this life
Leave nothing less
Than something that says "I was here"
I will prove you wrong
If you think I'm all talk, you're in for a shock
Cause this dream's too strong
Today I also re-realized that I am graduating from SLU on Friday. Yes, this is extremely exciting, but it's terrifying as well. I have told a few people it's bitter-sweet, and that's the only way I can really describe it. I want to be done with college, and I am proud of myself for finishing in 3.5 years, but SLU has become my safety net with people I don't want to live without, so leaving is going to be a huge challenge. It's funny how much has changed since I graduated high school and started SLU. I hated it here. I wanted to be home with my friends and family, but I stuck it out anyway. Giving up and leaving was never really an option. Because I did that, I received an education that truly challenged me, and I met people that helped me become who I am today. I am eternally grateful for my time at SLU.
This transition is made harder by not knowing where I will be in 9 months. I have applied to Clinical PhD programs, mostly in the Midwest, but there are a few outliers. I won't even hear back about interviews until the end of January or early February, and then I will have to wait until the end of March or April to know IF I get in anywhere. Talk about stressful. I am a planner, and I cannot plan this. I could be living in one of 7 states starting in August. Pretty unbelievable, right? I am so far out of my comfort zone, it isn't even funny. My dreams are worth that, though. I know that I will be a good psychologist, so it is worth the headache and uncertainty to apply. I just hope the schools I applied to agree with me.
To answer the "why now?" question - I think I want to start blogging now because I am getting ready to experience some major changes. Feel free to read along as I go through it all!
I wanna do something that matters
Say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better
With the time I've been given
And I wanna try
To touch a few hearts in this life
Leave nothing less
Than something that says "I was here"
I will prove you wrong
If you think I'm all talk, you're in for a shock
Cause this dream's too strong
Today I also re-realized that I am graduating from SLU on Friday. Yes, this is extremely exciting, but it's terrifying as well. I have told a few people it's bitter-sweet, and that's the only way I can really describe it. I want to be done with college, and I am proud of myself for finishing in 3.5 years, but SLU has become my safety net with people I don't want to live without, so leaving is going to be a huge challenge. It's funny how much has changed since I graduated high school and started SLU. I hated it here. I wanted to be home with my friends and family, but I stuck it out anyway. Giving up and leaving was never really an option. Because I did that, I received an education that truly challenged me, and I met people that helped me become who I am today. I am eternally grateful for my time at SLU.
This transition is made harder by not knowing where I will be in 9 months. I have applied to Clinical PhD programs, mostly in the Midwest, but there are a few outliers. I won't even hear back about interviews until the end of January or early February, and then I will have to wait until the end of March or April to know IF I get in anywhere. Talk about stressful. I am a planner, and I cannot plan this. I could be living in one of 7 states starting in August. Pretty unbelievable, right? I am so far out of my comfort zone, it isn't even funny. My dreams are worth that, though. I know that I will be a good psychologist, so it is worth the headache and uncertainty to apply. I just hope the schools I applied to agree with me.
To answer the "why now?" question - I think I want to start blogging now because I am getting ready to experience some major changes. Feel free to read along as I go through it all!
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