Heading to my last day of classes at SLU today, I heard Lady A's song, "I Was Here," and that is my inspiration for today
I wanna do something that matters
Say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better
With the time I've been given
And I wanna try
To touch a few hearts in this life
Leave nothing less
Than something that says "I was here"
I will prove you wrong
If you think I'm all talk, you're in for a shock
Cause this dream's too strong
Today I also re-realized that I am graduating from SLU on Friday. Yes, this is extremely exciting, but it's terrifying as well. I have told a few people it's bitter-sweet, and that's the only way I can really describe it. I want to be done with college, and I am proud of myself for finishing in 3.5 years, but SLU has become my safety net with people I don't want to live without, so leaving is going to be a huge challenge. It's funny how much has changed since I graduated high school and started SLU. I hated it here. I wanted to be home with my friends and family, but I stuck it out anyway. Giving up and leaving was never really an option. Because I did that, I received an education that truly challenged me, and I met people that helped me become who I am today. I am eternally grateful for my time at SLU.
This transition is made harder by not knowing where I will be in 9 months. I have applied to Clinical PhD programs, mostly in the Midwest, but there are a few outliers. I won't even hear back about interviews until the end of January or early February, and then I will have to wait until the end of March or April to know IF I get in anywhere. Talk about stressful. I am a planner, and I cannot plan this. I could be living in one of 7 states starting in August. Pretty unbelievable, right? I am so far out of my comfort zone, it isn't even funny. My dreams are worth that, though. I know that I will be a good psychologist, so it is worth the headache and uncertainty to apply. I just hope the schools I applied to agree with me.
To answer the "why now?" question - I think I want to start blogging now because I am getting ready to experience some major changes. Feel free to read along as I go through it all!
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